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It has been so long…

It has been so long, it took me nearly 20 minutes to figure out my page URL. I eventually had to search for “WordPress” in my email to find it.

Then I had to figure out what the user name was, and of course I needed a password reset.
Sheesh… I really need to keep this blog up better. All 3 of you that get site updates, you deserve better!

Anyway, had to get that off my chest. News to follow.


It Sucks to be Dead

Just something  I wrote real quick, check it out if you are interested:

            It turns out that it sucks to be dead. Let me give you an example: You know how most people assume that when you stop healing you die? As it turns out, the causality is backwards, and when you die you stop healing. Cut your finger and the cut never closes. Someone shoots you in the chest with a shotgun and you will always have a hole there. Accidently lop off an arm and… actually that is pretty permanent for the living too. And it gets better! Just because a dead person can’t heal doesn’t mean organic processes stop. Dead meat still rots and stinks and attracts maggot-bearing flies, even if they are walking around.

Yeah, being dead is no party, fortunately there is technology. Cut your finger and you can seal it up with superglue. Someone shoots you in the chest and you can pack it up with wadding and patch it over with some bandages. There are preservatives to keep your skin from rotting, and bug repellant helps keep the flies away. Continue reading

Tales of Brave Ulysses

(Lyon, 2010)

You thought the leaden winter

Would bring you down forever

But you rode upon a steamer

To the violence of the sun


And the colors of the sea

Blind your eyes with trembling mermaids

And you touch the distant beaches

With tales of brave Ulysses

How his naked ears were tortured  

by the sirens sweetly singing(Magic-Ban, 2010)

for the sparkling waves are

calling you to kiss white laced lips 


And you see a girl’s brown body

Dancing through the turquoise

And her footprints make you follow

Where the sky loves the sea(Joe Scotland)

And when your fingers find her

She drowns you in her body

Carving deep-blue ripples

In the tissue of your mind



Tiny purple fishes  

Run laughing through your fingers

And you want to take her with you

To the hard land of the winter


 Her name is Aphrodite

And she rides a crimson shell

And you know you cannot leave her

For you touched the distant sands

With tales of brave Ulysses

How his naked ears were tortured

by the Siren’s sweetly singing



Tiny purple fishes

Run laughing through your fingers

And you want to take her with you

To the hard land of the winter



Botticelli, S. The Birth of Venus. Uffizi Gallery, Florence.

Clapton, E., & Sharp, M. (n.d.). Tales of Brave Ulysses. (Cream, Performer)

Dini, P., & Englehart, S. “The Laughing Fish”.

JBL4430. (n.d.). Winter Fam Land with Hard Wood Bush. Retrieved 2011, from Panoramio:

Koski, J. (n.d.). Blue Mind. Retrieved 2011, from

Lyon, H. (2010, July). Winter and Summer Dryads. Retrieved July 2011, from

Magic-Ban. (2010). Kiss Their White Laced Lips. Retrieved 2011, from Deviantart:

Scotland, J. (n.d.). Sky in love with Sea. Retrieved 2011, from

Blogs, Blogging, etc.

A quick list of the pc gaming blogs I follow:

  • Twenty Sided – Shamus Young has a large body of readers. His blog has high quality writing with a large volume of posts. He has been blogging for a while. He also has an irrational dislike of Fallout 3, which I am struggling to forgive him for.
  • the CRPG Addict – An unnamed professional. CRPG Addict set out a while ago with upon a quest to play a veritable timeline of CRPG games in order. He is up to about 1987 so far and going strong. This is a really interesting read, steeped in the lore of CRPGs.
  • I visit the forums at MossMouth Games  occasionally. The main site is blocked at work, or I would visit it more. I really like Derek Yu’s work, he is a Name in the indie dev world, as much as that world has names. Look around mossmouth, and especially his other blog TIGsource and it is not hard to see why.
  • Tilting at Windmills – This guy is a trip. He is blogging about developing a CRPG on a TI-99/4a. The challenges of developing a CRPG alone are not enough of a feat for this ironman, he also throws in the headache of memory management for antiquated equipment. This, to me, equals Awesome-Nerd-On! Unfortunately he has not updated in a while, it seems he has been lulled by the siren song of MineCraft.
  • GameDev Dad (Used to be Viridian Games ) – Anthony Salter. I have never met the man, but I would love to do so. He has been a huge role-model for me ever since reading his saga of developing a 40-hour game. He has been going through a tough time lately as life unfolds in the way that life does…
  • Stingy Hat Games – Handshakes is a student/writer/game developer. His current project is a dating-sim flash game I think? Its not really my niche so I haven’t been following it real close. His blog has some awesome stuff on it about a quake based project. I am anxiously awaiting updates.
  • Ultima Aiera – This is a site I found at Stingy Hat Games. It is a news site, that updates frequently. Who knew Ultima still had so much activity! I have a soft-spot for Ultima, and there is some good stuff here.

I was thinking about these blogs as a whole, and I realize that they fall into two broad categories: Critics and Artists. I am not saying that any of these are only critics or are only artists, but the divide exists.  Neither of these viewpoints is wrong, they are just…different. If you have looked at my past posts (which doesn’t take very long, I am a bad blogger.) you can see I have indulged in both myself.

Artists are in tune with their work. They are excited by a new development, they are slogging through a grindy bit, they are relieved that a certain part is “done*”, or they are talking about new tools or methods. They very rarely look up from their work, and are not considering the larger framework og games that their single project will encompass.

Critics are looking at a submission, they want to have fun, but they have a very high bar. They are comparing each game to other games that they like or dislike, and making corresponding judgements. These judgements may or may not be fair, depending on a whole slew of things.

So what does this have to do with anything? I was reading a post by Viridian today about how he wants to improve his game in a great many ways. The game he is talking about is Inaria, which is the game he completed in 40 hours and inspired me in the first place. What frustrates me is that about this is that previously he was just talking about avoiding feature creep, and then in the next post he is talking about surrendering to feature creep altogether!

So why do I care? Feature creep is a real concern to me. I am working on a project that I hope to finish, and I understand the lure and the danger of feature creep all to well. There is so much temptation to say “Oh! I forgot to add broadswords!” and then add that to your item list. Then you have to consider where the player will find broadswords and add the objects there. Then you have to consider how a broadsword is different from a longsword or a cutlass and account for that in the way you balance the pace of your story and the progression of your difficulty…. etc.

 Artists are on one side, Critics are on the other, and the game is in the middle. This is the fundamental conflict: Critics say “Why couldn’t the developer just make this one tiny little change? It would have been more fun!” and artists say “Well, I could make that change, but then I would have to change this, and this, and this, and this…”

 Lord, give me the wisdom to know when I have enough features, and the strength to resist designing more.

*No project is ever truly done to the designer. It just stops accepting changes. In the case of a single developer-designer, you just have to will yourself to forget about it and not change it anymore.

F*ck Blue Shells

I recently picked up Mario Kart DS. My nephews have a copy, so I went an picked one up because it seemed fun.

I am not new to MarioKart, I played it on the N64 many years ago, but I haven’t really played it since then before playing the download version of multiplayer off my nephew’s cartridge on my DS.

Now that I have the full game, I get to experience blue shells for the first time! you know what? F*ck blue shells.


The only way to get a blue shell is to grab a pickup when you are behind, the only thing a blue shell affects is the racers (or racer) at the very front. How is this fair? It is a “power-up” that just lets the loser give middle finger to the winner.

I wouldn’t even bother me if the computer didn’t spam it. I was racing Wario’s race track and I got hit by no less than three blue shells in succession! I was so far ahead that the second place racer still couldn’t reach me, but it shot my lap time way up, denying me a two-star win.

I have two suggestions:

1. NPCs cannot use Blue Shells.

2. There is a special Black Shell that takes out the last person in the race.